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As I child I suffered, and I spent the rest of my life trying to understand this suffering. I wanted to know the causes of suffering and how to overcome it, to find happiness. I began with the great teachings of love and forgiveness through Jesus and the Catholic church that I was raised in, but as I entered college, I then broadened that search - this ground of loving and forgiveness held.
My questions included simply asking how to “love one another as I have loved you” and how to “forgive them, they know not what they do.” These were the essential questions and I asked them of Jesus himself through the work I had as a therapist with others who suffered, including people with AIDS, addiction and those who lived on the streets. I felt Christ with me and I challenged him - constantly. I explored other traditions only in the context of trying to understand a Christianity that was not judgmental or condemning of others.
It was only after practicing deep devotion, and what is known as bhakti yoga, I met a Tibetan monk, and taking refuge with him, the answers came as experiences which finally integrated every path I had looked at. I found these orange robed Tibetan monks to be the most “Christian’ individuals I had met who practiced with great humility a way of life in which the alleviation of suffering was their goal. They lived a life in which they sacrifice their personal needs for the welfare of others, known as the way of the Bodhisattva.
My root lama, Khenchen Rinpoche, Konchog Gyaltsen, was deeply humble and dedicated his entire life to giving these teachings to others. This is what I wanted to have; this dedication and devotion and the experience of my own Buddha-nature, what we might call, the Christ within.
40 years later, after practice, retreat, and, renunciation which included giving away everything I owned and living in a Buddhist nunnery for 8 months in India, something happened.
This website and this work IS my life.
If I can do this, anyone can. My message is this: JOY is your own nature. Other teachers have said the same thing in many different languages, with different rituals. I am just another voice, but it might be the one that you need to hear and together we can laugh out loud and remember that what is TRUE always IS true and doesn’t change dependent upon any outer circumstances.
The Truth itself is simple. We are all Buddhas; we are all Christs; we all come from Perfection and always return to that- but what must be developed is awareness. Years ago I felt a Presence that told me, “To be chosen is simply to be aware of your status as a child of God. We are all then chosen, but not all aware.” Awareness is the path and the practice.
My goal is to use the rest of my life to influence others to seek out experiences of Peace and to develop the practices that lead to the awareness of the great joy that is one’s own nature.
My message is simple; find your Self. It rests in the sanctuary of the Heart and there you are all with me and we are with the One.